Respect!

I know this person and they is not being very respectful right now. It isn't a big deal, but because no one is reading this anyways I might as well turn it into an online diary and if someone comes across it then maybe it will brighten their day to read about the shortcomings of this person.

So this person has a friend that has been their friend for a very long time. This friend is smart and the person is also smart. However, the person seems to believe that they are the smartest person to grace the earth and everyone needs to bow down in their presence. The person does not outwardly say this, but judging by the way that they post all of their school problems on Facebook and freak out about every little thing that happens to them, it's pretty clear that they have some sort of superiority complex. In addition, I can see that the person did not have many friends in high school. This is something new to me because I had great friends in high school and they helped shape me into the person that I am today, and they continue to do so. This person often talks about high school friends, but never in a good context. There always seem to be a variety of complaints, and eavesdropping (tsk tsk ranjini!) on their phone conversations never leaves me convinced that people actually like them. Probably because they are too concerned with themselves. (in real life..someone told me today that having a blog is pompous. it is I guess to have a whole website devoted to talking about myself and my thoughts, but it's okay because if I do my talking on here, i am more apt to notice when I'm hogging conversation in real life and I can temper that better)

Anyways this person has a friend and the friend came and asked for some homework help and the person flipped out and made it seem like it was the biggest sacrifice in the world for them to help the friend on the homework. The person may have things to do, but if they did not have time to help their friend, they could have just said so instead of making rude and angry comments making the friend feel like an idiot for not understanding what the person was trying to explain.

The person needs to find a better outlet for anger because I have seen it taken out on this friend too often, but I know it isn't my place to say anything because they have been friends for a long time and if anything, it would be really strange given my relationship to both of them for me to stick up for the friend. I don't see how the friend hasn't gotten fed up!

I feel better now. I'll go to bed.

In a sec.

In regards to my other problem...is it completely insane for me to just put myself out there? To make my feelings known so that even if you don't feel the same way right now you at least are aware of them when you're ready to start thinking about these things? Is it going to make things awkward if I were to just tell you?

All I know is whenever you're not texting me, I'm just thinking about things that I could potentially text you. It's hard to restrain myself. I know you say you're oblivious, but even you should be able to pick up on signals this clear.

Okay now that's all I have to say.

Love,

Ranjini