All I wanna do right now is talk to you. Sometimes we have these late night chats about life. They usually aren't related to us or anything, but somehow just talking seems like it might someday draw you into the attraction. Maybe you're thinking about me. Why can't I just follow my heart and tell you when I want to hang out with you or be okay with texting you first? You don't seem to care so why do I spend all my time just thinking about how each of my moves is going to affect things.
It doesn't matter. I need a new you.
Friday, April 20, 2012
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
Respect!
I know this person and they is not being very respectful right now. It isn't a big deal, but because no one is reading this anyways I might as well turn it into an online diary and if someone comes across it then maybe it will brighten their day to read about the shortcomings of this person.
So this person has a friend that has been their friend for a very long time. This friend is smart and the person is also smart. However, the person seems to believe that they are the smartest person to grace the earth and everyone needs to bow down in their presence. The person does not outwardly say this, but judging by the way that they post all of their school problems on Facebook and freak out about every little thing that happens to them, it's pretty clear that they have some sort of superiority complex. In addition, I can see that the person did not have many friends in high school. This is something new to me because I had great friends in high school and they helped shape me into the person that I am today, and they continue to do so. This person often talks about high school friends, but never in a good context. There always seem to be a variety of complaints, and eavesdropping (tsk tsk ranjini!) on their phone conversations never leaves me convinced that people actually like them. Probably because they are too concerned with themselves. (in real life..someone told me today that having a blog is pompous. it is I guess to have a whole website devoted to talking about myself and my thoughts, but it's okay because if I do my talking on here, i am more apt to notice when I'm hogging conversation in real life and I can temper that better)
Anyways this person has a friend and the friend came and asked for some homework help and the person flipped out and made it seem like it was the biggest sacrifice in the world for them to help the friend on the homework. The person may have things to do, but if they did not have time to help their friend, they could have just said so instead of making rude and angry comments making the friend feel like an idiot for not understanding what the person was trying to explain.
The person needs to find a better outlet for anger because I have seen it taken out on this friend too often, but I know it isn't my place to say anything because they have been friends for a long time and if anything, it would be really strange given my relationship to both of them for me to stick up for the friend. I don't see how the friend hasn't gotten fed up!
I feel better now. I'll go to bed.
In a sec.
In regards to my other problem...is it completely insane for me to just put myself out there? To make my feelings known so that even if you don't feel the same way right now you at least are aware of them when you're ready to start thinking about these things? Is it going to make things awkward if I were to just tell you?
All I know is whenever you're not texting me, I'm just thinking about things that I could potentially text you. It's hard to restrain myself. I know you say you're oblivious, but even you should be able to pick up on signals this clear.
Okay now that's all I have to say.
Love,
Ranjini
So this person has a friend that has been their friend for a very long time. This friend is smart and the person is also smart. However, the person seems to believe that they are the smartest person to grace the earth and everyone needs to bow down in their presence. The person does not outwardly say this, but judging by the way that they post all of their school problems on Facebook and freak out about every little thing that happens to them, it's pretty clear that they have some sort of superiority complex. In addition, I can see that the person did not have many friends in high school. This is something new to me because I had great friends in high school and they helped shape me into the person that I am today, and they continue to do so. This person often talks about high school friends, but never in a good context. There always seem to be a variety of complaints, and eavesdropping (tsk tsk ranjini!) on their phone conversations never leaves me convinced that people actually like them. Probably because they are too concerned with themselves. (in real life..someone told me today that having a blog is pompous. it is I guess to have a whole website devoted to talking about myself and my thoughts, but it's okay because if I do my talking on here, i am more apt to notice when I'm hogging conversation in real life and I can temper that better)
Anyways this person has a friend and the friend came and asked for some homework help and the person flipped out and made it seem like it was the biggest sacrifice in the world for them to help the friend on the homework. The person may have things to do, but if they did not have time to help their friend, they could have just said so instead of making rude and angry comments making the friend feel like an idiot for not understanding what the person was trying to explain.
The person needs to find a better outlet for anger because I have seen it taken out on this friend too often, but I know it isn't my place to say anything because they have been friends for a long time and if anything, it would be really strange given my relationship to both of them for me to stick up for the friend. I don't see how the friend hasn't gotten fed up!
I feel better now. I'll go to bed.
In a sec.
In regards to my other problem...is it completely insane for me to just put myself out there? To make my feelings known so that even if you don't feel the same way right now you at least are aware of them when you're ready to start thinking about these things? Is it going to make things awkward if I were to just tell you?
All I know is whenever you're not texting me, I'm just thinking about things that I could potentially text you. It's hard to restrain myself. I know you say you're oblivious, but even you should be able to pick up on signals this clear.
Okay now that's all I have to say.
Love,
Ranjini
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
#badfeeling
Its awful when youre completely consumed by an idea that you know is not rational and you're propelled by the hope that something's going to change for sure and that dream will become a reality.
And then someone tells you that their mind is made up and that dream will never become a reality.
And then you realize that their mind has been made up all along and you've been the only one over thinking and fantasizing.
I first posted this without the love ranjini. I doubt anyone's even freaking reading this and if they are I doubt they'd care that I didn't sign it like i usually do but here's me always looking for freaking hope like a dumbass and here's the hope that one day lots of people will read this and then maybe someone will care that I didn't sign it properly.
Love,
Ranjini
And then someone tells you that their mind is made up and that dream will never become a reality.
And then you realize that their mind has been made up all along and you've been the only one over thinking and fantasizing.
I first posted this without the love ranjini. I doubt anyone's even freaking reading this and if they are I doubt they'd care that I didn't sign it like i usually do but here's me always looking for freaking hope like a dumbass and here's the hope that one day lots of people will read this and then maybe someone will care that I didn't sign it properly.
Love,
Ranjini
Wednesday, April 4, 2012
Nostalgia
Little kids (meaning high school seniors) are coming to me asking for advice about how to make the best of their experience freshman year. Honestly, the best advice I could give would be to live an awesome life and continue being awesome throughout freshman year. I look back on my time spent at home and it's cheesy but I can literally picture exact moments when I know that I should have done something different; but then I realize that in the end, I am a product of all the things that have happened to me and being able to look back on all those times when I should have done something else makes me into the type of decision maker that I am today.
Last week I was thinking about how I am not any type of definable person who can look at her life and be like BAM I was the athlete or I was the mathlete. But I guess all I can say is that I've been fortunate. Things that have happened in my life have happened in a way that have shaped me into a person that I like and I realize now that I have never had to work very hard for the things that have happened.
Maybe this doesn't make sense, but I'm going to be late to work. I say I hate it, but really, it isnt bad at all.
Fortunately yours,
Ranjini
Fortunately yours is a stupid way to end a post.
Love,
Ranjini
Last week I was thinking about how I am not any type of definable person who can look at her life and be like BAM I was the athlete or I was the mathlete. But I guess all I can say is that I've been fortunate. Things that have happened in my life have happened in a way that have shaped me into a person that I like and I realize now that I have never had to work very hard for the things that have happened.
Maybe this doesn't make sense, but I'm going to be late to work. I say I hate it, but really, it isnt bad at all.
Fortunately yours,
Ranjini
Fortunately yours is a stupid way to end a post.
Love,
Ranjini
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